A full day of reflections, observations, and experimentations with bodily practices has brought forth many insights. It is remarkable how every moment of interaction is filled with signs and signals that can be read and listened to. Our bodies are in constant sharing of insights, in minuscule gestures, great wisdom.
I enjoyed drifting in those observations, watching carefully, igniting my curiosity, and becoming more skilled at letting go and trusting a moment to unfold so I can pick up crumbs of awareness and help to notice.
A while ago, I was sharing my transformation when I am in my gatherer mode. When I encounter berries or nuts in the wild, I tap into a deep primal state that I struggle to justify rationally. The same feeling I had when I had to observe behaviors, gathering insights. I love doing that; my hyperfocus makes me happy. Hyperfocus that is appreciated and feels loved and needed.
There is silence in hyperfocus. Attentive listening is at the forefront. Silence gives rise to listening. More and more, I am connecting with my listening nature. I find joy and calm in being able to listen, which might contradict with my sharing nature. It's a discrepancy I would like to look into further.
A few patterns emerged from the exercises we were engaging in. Let me list a few that come to mind:
Connecting with my chest brings me confidence.
Connecting with my hips brings out adventurousness.
Connecting with my lower back brings up tears and activated emotions.
Receiving touch from the back activates alertness.
When I find my solid, secure base, playfulness unfolds naturally.
When someone gives me a solution to a problem I didn't know I had, I reject it, even if I discover the resonance.
I am open to playing with others with whatever they decide to engage with.
I wait for others to take me on adventures.
I am not verbally expressing what I feel in a moment, even if I feel connected non-verbally.
In eye contact, I find the intensity of contact I am attracted to.
I like to play and take care of others.
When my body is fully participating, my happiness skyrockets.
Physically, my body is strong and capable of many things. I am ready to meet situations others bring in.
I am aware that these insights are mostly personal observations of my own experience, but who knows, perhaps they create useful points of awareness to reflect upon one's own experiences.
What is clear after the first lesson is that exploring through the initiation of bodily practices makes the richness of lightness available to tap into and create new experiences with oneself, for those who choose it, of course.