I decided to dedicate this summer to some expansion practices. I think in the past five months or so I was narrowing down and shrinking in some areas of my life. Past few months I started to become more aware of what was causing it, mostly self-deception I used to cover up my procrastination to engage with some existential activities. I was constantly distracting myself from difficult stuff which requires effort. Even these drifts are somewhat manifestation of it, daily commitment to something that I thought was important, at times became a distraction and avoidance of questioning real things. Not all the time clearly and after the break my attitude change, but I had a moments where I was forgetting what I was doing and just moved automatically. I often talked about obsessiveness been a dubious virtue and i think i did cross a line and became owned my my obsessive nature. It made me narrow and I lost the spaciousness. I decent dependent and had to feed my desire. It made me question though about a possibility of having spaciousness and obsessiveness in one mix. I discovered tantra and their spacious passion ridge with bunch of other ideas that cherish in intensity and energy within. Following the teaching,
Summer time.
Summer time.
Summer time.
I decided to dedicate this summer to some expansion practices. I think in the past five months or so I was narrowing down and shrinking in some areas of my life. Past few months I started to become more aware of what was causing it, mostly self-deception I used to cover up my procrastination to engage with some existential activities. I was constantly distracting myself from difficult stuff which requires effort. Even these drifts are somewhat manifestation of it, daily commitment to something that I thought was important, at times became a distraction and avoidance of questioning real things. Not all the time clearly and after the break my attitude change, but I had a moments where I was forgetting what I was doing and just moved automatically. I often talked about obsessiveness been a dubious virtue and i think i did cross a line and became owned my my obsessive nature. It made me narrow and I lost the spaciousness. I decent dependent and had to feed my desire. It made me question though about a possibility of having spaciousness and obsessiveness in one mix. I discovered tantra and their spacious passion ridge with bunch of other ideas that cherish in intensity and energy within. Following the teaching,